By SheelaR

So, I managed to get through my weekend, albeit feeling a little scarred.  I don’t know how to be over it and all the stress is taking a toll on my emotional and physical well-being. My blood pressure is through the roof and my brain feels scrambled.

Firstly, work on the house has slowed to a crawl. *takes a deep breath*  And the kitchen sink leaked all night. *closing my eyes and praying for strength. Secondly, Facebook has once again managed to creep into my consciousnesses and I feel like my life with never be the same because of it.

When you have so much to feel blessed for, the little things should never get any of your energy. Unfortunately, we give the little things of absolutely no worth too much power. I thought that my life was easy.  I thought that everything had its place. What I’ve learned is that nothing is certain but death. A sobering reality.

I also learned that there are a lot of people who take absolute pleasure in the pain of others.  Clearly, they are not happy and misery really does love company.  It makes no sense to me why people put so much time and energy into hurting other people. I guess it is easier to inflict pain than to deal with your own.

I know what I have, who I am and what I want. All that other stuff has mattered for all the wrong reasons.  When we are not thankful for our blessings and gifts we pay a heavy price.  I’ve paid, and I’ve paid.  I think my bill has been settled…or at least I hope it so.

Missteps are inevitable for us all.  When we fall, someone will be there to kick us while we’re down. What matters are those who help you up and dust you off. Those are the people that deserve our attention and appreciation. I’m closing an unhappy chapter in my life. I’m slamming that door shut. I need to maintain a higher level of dignity and so far, I’ve not done a good job.  I need to work on me, I can’t fix anyone else.

Last thing before I lie my hurting head down for the night… I love my friends for holding me down this week.

Thank you for encouraging me to pursue my dreams of writing and teaching art. You’ve given me a new lease on life with your belief in me. Thank you for telling me to come back because you had nothing interesting or funny in your timeline. That made me rotflmaopimp. I guess I’ll add comedian to my résumé   Thank you for believing in me, because you know I have nothing to prove. Finally, thank you for your patience and for caring about me unconditionally. Telling me you would pursue your art if I pursued mine, put a fire under me.  I love a challenge.

I am rich in my life.  Not because of the things that I have, but because of the people that love Sheelagh for who they know she is and not what they think she is. I don’t know what I wanted, but I know what I have and it is all that I need.