By SheelaR

I’ve become obsessed with my weight lately. I’ve always been, but during this last year I’ve been extra vigilant.  I’m always watching the scale.  It doesn’t matter how many times people tell me I’m a great size, I always manage to see something else. As a woman, there is so much pressure to be unnaturally thin.

I love to eat but sometimes I think twice about everything I put in my mouth…quickly counting every carb and calorie in my head before I eat. That extra cookie or swig of soda comes with a ton of guilt and shame.  Looking good all the time comes with a heavy price.

It would be easy to say that I’m doing it for my health, but the truth of the matter is, I am not. I want to look good in my clothes and I’m not offended if someone notices. I take pride in looking svelte. Passing a mirror is not met with one glance, but two.

That makes me vain and for all the wrong reasons. I just found another reason to work on me 🙂