By SheelaR

I’ve always set the bar too high in my expectations of others. I’m easily disappointed. My ex ‘C’ agrees. I need to work on that and I’m not sure where to start. Do I lower my standards or my expectations? I don’t know. There are something’s that should be smooth in our exchanges with others and when they are not, I’m easily frustrated.

I find myself  having to take long deep breaths.  My ability to tolerate simple  transgressions isn’t what it should be.  ‘C’ says that “just because a certain kind of thinking comes natural for me, doesn’t mean that it is that way for everyone.” My brain knows that right before that feeling of irritation, but I find it difficult to stymie the reaction.

Ironically, I hate it when I feel as though others place unreasonable expectations on me. What an oxymoronic way of thinking and behaving. I guess that makes me a bit of a hypocrite. I really don’t like the thought of that.  I guess I’ll add it to my list of things to work on.

On a lighter note. I really enjoyed hearing from ‘C’ today. I needed to hear a calming voice. It didn’t have to be him, but it is what I needed at that moment and it didn’t really matter who it came from.  I just needed a voice of reason.  I dislike venting to everyone and sometimes the proverbial strong shoulders that I need isn’t available. I like where we are in our friendship. It has come a long way. Funny how we ended up in this awkward place we find ourselves in. I once placed unreasonable expectations on him, and look at how that turned out…