By SheelaR

Like Jesus, most of us have experienced a Judas in our lives. Unlike Jesus, most of us have survived the betrayal.  Life is full of painful moments.  It is how we deal with them that determines if we are survivors or casualties. The wounds of betrayal are deep and devastating. Trust becomes just another five letter word. You start to view everyone with an uncertain eye. In everybody lies a shadowy figure. It is life changing. Another day, another lesson learned…that is if you’re open and aware. 

I’ve learned that life is not black and white. It is made up of varying shades of gray and humans are innately flawed opportunist. Which is why my moments are really no different from anyone else’s.  The people and the circumstances may be different, but at the bottom of it all, are still very painful moments. 

Not understanding why someone takes time out of their life to and hurt or destroy other people…adds another level of hurt to it. Don’t ever dwell in the pain. That alone will kill your spirit. “There’s something wrong with your character if opportunity controls your loyalty.”

I’ve chosen not to ever dwell on my Judas moments. I cry and then I’m over it. I generally get to a point where I can find humor and irony in it.  It is my coping skill. I also develop compassion for my Judas, for he knows not what he does. 

You can’t be happy and whole if you’re actively and willingly looking for an opportunity to hurt other people. You are damaged. I feel sad that life has left you feeling broken and unloved. Hurt people hurt.  If you are a hurt soul, I know you won’t see yourself in this, most don’t and are unwilling to entertain the thought of it. Don’t go around wreaking havoc in the lives of others because yours has taken a shitty turn left. Get back in it and make a right turn at the fork in the road. 

I’ve got work to do and I haven’t had my morning coffee. I shall see you on the flip side 🙂 P.s. I’ve had to defer my writing until a later time in my life. I’ve got lots of other wonderful things to keep me busy. Life is good!