By SheelaR

I’m officially sick of social media. I’d really miss my friends, which is the only reason I stay…but I’m simply sick of everyone else. People have reduced themselves to childish attention whores. I’ve watched quite a few of my friends morph into amazing people, and others into babbling idiots.

I don’t know why I feel this way now. It could simply be a part of my transition. I no longer desire the real or virtual company of people who don’t fit into my neat little box. My expectations are at times too high and it always lead to disappointments. I need out of this whirlwind of craziness.

Outside of social-media lies a great big interesting world. Every time I log off of the virtual one, the real one becomes more interesting. Genuinely interesting people with genuinely interesting lives and stories to tell. That’s what I desire…realness that isn’t forced.

I’ve been here before and I’ve struggled with making the leap. So, what to do? I know the answer, I’m simply struggling with seeing it to fruition. I decided to stay home through the summer to reconnect with the people, places, and things that mean the most to me.

Writing is my life and it keeps me sane in an otherwise insane world, so I’ll be keeping my blog and Twitter accounts. Everything else must go…especially Facebook. I’ve honesty made some wonderful connections, but I desire some solitude…its keeps me grounded.

I’ve considered keeping my Facebook account, minus the friends because I’ve amassed a treasure trove of pages and news sources that I enjoy reading, but how do you tell people you like and would miss that you desire solitude?

How do you explain the need for a quietness of mind that can only be achieved by locking others out? How do you tell people that it’s not them its you? I have a strong need for an emotional wanderlust that simply can’t be cured with an existence fed by an online presence.

This has to be the end for me. I have to let go. I have to retreat back to a time and a place where my peaceful existence ruled the day. Where I wasn’t checking, making, or thinking about status updates. Where I loved and desire the company of my family and friends the most.

Goodbyes are never easy. I’ve said so many of them lately. I wish they were easier. I wish I had the strength and presence of mind to walk away without a second glance. As hard as it is…it has to be.