Home Sweet Home, at least that’s what I’m hoping…

/ SheelaR
By SheelaR

The last two weeks have been overwhelming. I’m home and I’m physically and emotionally drained. I was home several hours before I told anyone. It took several hours of being home alone before I was ready to talk to anyone. I’m sorry…I needed me time that didn’t include communication with anyone one in any fashion. 

I’m experiencing some feelings of grief and loss right now. The emotional lows are outweighing the high ones. I left people that I’d formed deep emotional attachments with. Although, the people here make up my circle and foundation, DC…has become that other place that I can call home.

During those first few hours, I tried to do things that made me feel good. I made us some comfort food…a pasta dish from scratch. It was super good, gave me warm and fuzzy feelings. I went back for seconds…don’t judge me! 

I cracked open a book that I’ve been wanting to read… One of many that I received for my birthday and Christmas. I’ve gotten so use to audio and e-books that I’d forgotten what it felt like to hold an actual book. I must say…it felt good 🙂 I didn’t get very far before the need for something else called. I’ve got some time on my hands over the next few weeks, so there will be plenty of opportunity to finish it. 

I’ve also started revamping my WordPress blog. It was much like this one, but I’ve renamed it and refocused it on the arts. 

I missed my bed and watching the local news. Nothing says home like watching the news from your favorite comfy spot. Although, it’s not been slept in…I put on fresh linen and misted it with lavender linen spray. Of course, no night can complete without my favorite…ice cream. Ahh! After my ice cream, I made a cup of coffee, came back to bed, and turned on some music. Hopefully, I’ll be out like the lights. I think I’m going to need a few more nights like that before my heart and mind settles into the kind of happiness that only home can inspire.

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