By SheelaR

I think every single person (and there are billions) on Facebook is suffering from some sort of mental illness…including myself.  Why do we subject ourselves to such craziness?Why do we listen and respond to the madness that is other folks opinions? I often find myself completely fascinated by the madness of it all. Checking in just to get a large dose of all that is wrong with the world. My own undiagnosed ADD is my reason.  My mind is literally working 24 hours a day and requires constant stimulation. I hate that about myself. I can’t turn it off and most times, and if I’m being honest, I don’t want to.

As I’m writing this…I’m listening to a podcast about the South Sudan, making a work-related To Do list in my head, and checking Facebook and Twitter for0fdu the latest news stories. You can’t get much crazier than that. I’d like to be sleep, but who’d make my To Do list? My entire body and mind is restless.  I suspect that technology and social media is creating a whole new crop of people with situational ADD. Not sure if that’s possible, but I’m willing to bet that it is.

I have to be up and out of the house by 7:30 am. It’s going to be one of those days… My life is going to be in shambles tomorrow.  I feel like Al Pacino in Insomnia. Now that I’ve brought it up, I think I’ll watch it. That is… If my shitty Internet is working. I hate my cable company. At any given time during the day or night it is down more than it’s up.  I don’t know why I’ve not given them the boot yet. Familiarity I suspect. It would feel like breaking up with a boyfriend. No one wants to start all over again with a new boyfriend or cable.

I was actually quite sleepy around 9 pm, but my phone rang and it was over after that. I should have made a cup of tea, put in my earbuds, and let sleep happen. Instead, I let awakeness and the idea of getting things done take over. I welcomed and nurtured the craziness. As you can see, the ADD is in full effect.  I’ve hopped from one nonsensical topic to another without even stopping to catch my breath.

It doesn’t help that the wind is blowing hard and causing things outside to rattle. That always freak me out. Btw… My movie still hasn’t started.  I guess I should try and sleep now. I need to force it… not really sure if it’s going to work.  Who knows… I might get lucky 🙂