SheelaR

I’m SheelaR. Just a little about my blog and I. I’m a creative overachiever, who’s not big on being the forthcoming type. I’m acutely private, as you may have already figured out. I’m a nerdy academic; the artsy crafty bohemian chic type. Bookish. A tree-hugging bleeding heart abstract and critical thinker. I’m a reserved in my morals, but I never pass up the opportunity to be the life of the party – when called upon. I’m agonizingly self-conscious, yet I often leave the house without brushing my hair. I’m everything you can imagine, and its opposite. Putting my actual self out there has always been a prospect I’ve met with dread and swift rebuke, which is often in opposition of my occasional need to overshare. I’m always and forever in direct conflict with myself. 

I’ve never wanted to be thought of as an ordinary person, or one that has nothing significant or worthwhile to ever contribute. I shy away from mundane interests which I perceive to be frivolous. So for the greater part, I have gone through life quietly studying and consuming the world. This has been mired by my insatiable need to learn. For me, staying alive means streamlining and regimenting every aspect of my life, down to the thoughts I’ve allowed myself to acknowledge and the interests I allowed myself to develop. Otherwise, it just seems too loud inside my head. But that’s no way to live, not sustainably. Over time, I have discovered that I am full of thoughts and experiences that leave me with an almost insatiable desire to go beyond mere consumption, and I really want to talk about them… This is where my blogging comes in. 

Before I started blogging, I had been scratching this writing itch as a ghost writer for several printed and online magazines/publications. Ghosting became a active part of my life. 🙂 Without notice, I suddenly burned out. I made a hasty retreat into into a quiet uneventful life, which included deactivating my online presence. I retreated to a quieter, less complex existence. Ironically, I find myself in need of a quieter place to live and love…again. 

Anyways…

One Counter Culture was borne out of a desperate will to exist in more than just one dimension. I want to strike a balance and not have to negate one element of my truth for the other. So, One Counter Culture is about embracing the possibility of a nuanced, beautifully complex life. It’s a hodgepodge random place of expression. One Counter Culture offers a wealth of the meaningful and meaningless; engaging in critical thought; and being honest in sharing the sometimes-difficult realities that preoccupy my mind…because there are enough rose-tinted blogs. I want to be and do all of these things at once because I absolutely can. 

It has taken me a while to finally grow out of the trope of cynical selfloathing millennials, who hold any and everything reminiscent of millennialism in contempt. Although, I still struggle with these feelings. However, I am here now, on the blogosphere, carving out and curating a space where I can express my trivial interests alongside the more grave; where without pretence, I can assert that Intellectualism and being a sentient, temporal, worldly being are not mutually exclusive; where I can make a reasoned participation in the human experience.

Through this blog, I want to contribute to a culture of sharing – without the shame. I seek to make meaningful connections with people of like mind and differing experience. I hope this resonates with you. I want this blog to be more than my mental playground. I want to bring more content that you can relate to and have never considered. Feedback, good, bad or indifferent…is always welcomed.