By SheelaR
After seven stressful years, I’ve pulled the plug on my Facebook page. No regrets. Although, I am leaving behind a lot of people whose company I really enjoyed. I will truly miss this time away from you. There are also a lot of people that I won’t even give a second thought to L I had been tossing around the idea of walking away for quite a while, but some of my lovelier friendships, kept me from doing that. However, the stress of dealing with people and situations that were unhealthy, made the decision to walk away all too easy.
I got to a point where I started to hate people just because they were breathing. I also found myself nursing a lot of anger. I don’t want to live like that anymore. The only thing you can control in any situation is yourself. So here I am. I have to learn to simply appreciate and enjoy the people in my life that love me just because. They don’t require a dog and pony show, to be content with my existence in their lives. All I want is to be a work in progress and to keep progressing. I can’t do that if I’m saddled with anger and malcontent.
Don’t get me wrong…. There are a lot of amazing people on Facebook. Unfortunately, there are few that make the environment too hostile to be content in. I really will miss some of the spirited debates, as well as the randomly funny ones, and the meaningless and meaningful discussions. I’ll miss you, just because… I hate that I let the ugliness of it all define my time there, because it had been on occasion, a place of endless enjoyment. My need for growth and development dictated that I walk away before becoming thoroughly emotionally stunted. The lows were starting to outnumber the highs.
I can only hope that anyone who cared about me will understand my need for a solace and solitude…away from the book. Just know that your friendships means much more than you’ll ever realize. However, I’m a natural loner… I can’t do this thing called life in front of a crowd. Maybe with a little time away and a new perspective, I can rejoin you on the book, but for now…I must retreat to a healthier time and place.
Thoughts of a Wordinary Girl 