By SheelaR

Came to Miami to test out some samples for my beauty product line (Simply Beautiful by Sheela) and I am seriously disappointed. I’ve been trying to contain my frustration all day, and internalizing it is causing me to break out in a rash. I gave some very specific details on how I wanted it to look and feel, and it was the complete opposite. The formulas seem cheaply made and not organic at all. I should have known that it was too soon for him to have cranked out a quality product in such a short amount of time, but I had faith that it was possible. My own naivete at work…

I feel like I’ve flushed a significant amount of time, energy, and money down the drain. I don’t want to abandon my dream, but I can’t allow it to become the one thing I’ve worked so hard to avoid these last three months…stress. This means so much to me in the light of my melanoma scare last year.

I hate starting this process over, but what other choice do I have if I want this to happen? I don’t want a significant portion of my life to be spent in hotel rooms, so finding a chemist/herbalist closer to home is my next move. I need to be more hands on with this process, because no one is going to love and have the same level of passion about it as me.

I’m not a quitter, so the idea of giving up hurts my soul. I’ve got to see this product line to fruition. It’s another thing in my life that feels like giving birth, because I’m obsessed with the idea of giving life to something…anything (laughed out loud). I love the process of creating and all that it entails. It is the thing that makes me the happiest. Maybe my expectations were to high for his skill level and the time frame we agreed upon. I need a new plan for getting this done.

I going to watch a movie and maybe possibly drift off to sleep. Given the frenetic state my mind is in, that’s highly unlikely..but I’ll try anyway.  Worse case scenario…I end up wasting a couple of hours watching a really shitty movie.