By SheelaR
I woke up this morning with my mind in complete in chaos and racing at a frenetic pace. I had a ton of To Do Lists running through my head. One for every aspect of my life. I felt so overwhelmed that I had a moment where I almost cried. It was reminiscent of a time when work and stress ruled my life. I don’t ever want to be in that place again; but I was this morning.
I got back in bed, pulled out my iPad and started writing. Trying to function in such a chaotic space would have been a bad scene for me today. As much as I’d like to barrel through all my lists, I can’t. I’ve learned how to stop and smell the roses. I can’t allow my past way of existing to derail all the progress I’ve made.
Now that I’ve managed to reroute my mind… I’m going to turn off my phone and have breakfast on the patio. For a second, I entertained the idea of reading a book, but my brain isn’t quite that settled yet. Instead, I’m going to listen to some classical music and draw. I’ve not given up on adulting, so I’ll be off to the office in the afternoon.
Life is about balance. I almost learned that too late. I literally ran myself in the ground trying to live up to some lofty self-imposed expectations. I never stopped to appreciate how wonderful my life already was. Instead, I was trying to make it better than it needed to be. Success is overrated if you’re unhappy chasing it. When I finally realized that, it was too late to salvage some important relationships.
Now that I have a healthy balance of work and play, I’m happier than I’ve been in a long time. I’m slowly repairing some relationships and hoping others will repair themselves with a little more time and forgiveness. This mornings glitch was a sobering reminder that I’ve taken life and the people that love me for granted. I assumed that everyone understood my journey and would be there at the end of it…but that’s not how life works.
My journey doesn’t have an ending, but I’m making room and time for the things that matter. People matter š
Thoughts of a Wordinary Girl 